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the last time i felt like this....i was in love, and had to leave someone, not by choice, or heartbroken, we just had to go home from the summer....
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May. 20th, 2009 @ 10:36 am
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I HAVE A BOYFRIEND! FIVE DAYS NOW! WOOP WOOP! lol |
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So things are going really well with Aaron. I just need to find the right things to say and maybe certain thingsi dan say to get stuff out of him....
I am looking at these things more around the time of when I go on tour. I wanna know what he is looking for while I am away. |
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YAY!
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May. 11th, 2009 @ 10:15 pm
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My life is picking up so well. I have met a new boy and it is amazing. He is amazing. I am hoping this all goes the right way. |
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I really broke it off with brian,
most boring relationship, if you could call it that, that i have ever been in.
i couldn't stop thinking of peter, i don't know why
brian made me wanna barf when he touched me, never thought i would feel why that was lol
i met a 26 year old band director who is really cute and dorky.
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Sara Wittbrodt contacted me the other day....that made me really happy and she said she can't wait to c me!!!!!
I hate living with mom. She never supports me in any of my decisions. Dad always did. He supported me every step of the way. Mom always supports greg. And lets him live his life. I am just waiting for my real life to begin.
Mar. 19th, 2009 @ 03:25 pm
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I can't believe you used me for your experimenting. Drive to see you. I really wonder what he thinks about what has happened between us. Like seriously, why do you want to do that with me? Because after it happens, you are really quiet and you are very hostile to the conversation we have because it is such a HUGE build up to when we hook up. Last time wasn't as good as that first time. I was a little surprised at what i saw. You seem really easy to please. You are very self centered and it is so shocking.
The best part, I am finally falling for brian. And I love it right now. I am over kyle and will have to let him go. I am planning on flying out to san diego to see him right after finals. It will be great.
Feb. 22nd, 2009 @ 09:07 pm
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I still read her blogs just to see how shitty of a person she is.......
and i am right....
I am planning a surprise trip to san diego to see brian......to surprise him....thought about him lately and how good this could be...and how I was being totally stupid about certain things and not seeing the light!
Feb. 20th, 2009 @ 03:30 pm
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I wonder why I even care anymore. Probably because I have a heart. And I worry. Natural human reaction. At what point do I let go and stop wondering and worrying? Please tell me.
Camp was great this weekend. Gonna have a blast this summer. Have a lot of work ahead of us. But we are going to do it.
Feb. 9th, 2009 @ 09:41 am
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So, tomorrow is the day I lost my dad, one year later....
I can't really believe that one year has gone by....
And i don't know how to fathom the feelings i might feel tomorrow....
if I feel anything at all...
I just have a new outlook on celebrating holidays....that I just don't want to.
go to texas this weekend.....teach some band
Feb. 3rd, 2009 @ 12:08 pm
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Well, I have not posted on here in a long time. I have done a lot and lot has happened in my life.......
I have been to Europe
My Dad Passed Away
I Won A World Championship
I Walked in Graduation
I taught PCEP for a second year in a row
I gave my senior recital
This week is the same week dad went into the hospital a year ago. I am no longer friends with Yoonji. I am no longer friends with Christina. And it feels good. That is sad to say, but I can't deal with high maintenance relationships anymore.
I am apparently not friends with Sara Wittbrodt anymore. And I don't think it should be that way. I think there can be some issues resolved, I just wish that it wasn't coming from Christina I hear these things. If Sara has problems with me then she should tell me. She is a good friend and great respect for her. She has been a really good of a friend. I haven't been a shitty friend to her, but I think I could be a better friend.
Plymouth is underway.
Teaching WB.
Crossmen is well underway
I have officially hooked up with a straight boy. Or so he says. He can be thats fine but enjoys a little slap and tickle once in a while. I like it and makes it fun.
I met another guy. Could of had a great relationship. Something got in the way. Wish it didn't have to occur like it did. Maybe something can still happen
Feb. 1st, 2009 @ 12:51 am
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Ok so you were avoiding me the other day. Check it bitch.....
I want to talk with you.....
I ask you to talk on the phone
um...your phone died (what you said)
I asked you to use a house phone
you apparently don't have one....
well we need to talk...
ok...well i have medication in my mouth.for the past four hours...
right....
and i don't know how long it is going to stay in
right
well it might take a while
that is fine i have time
can we just talk online?
no
y
well if you call me then I will tell you
hm....
THAT IS RIGHT HM!!!!!!!!BITCH I CALLED YOU OUT.
Why do i fucking care so much
Feb. 17th, 2008 @ 07:02 pm
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YOU ARE SO FULL OF SHIT!!!!!!!!!
I am calling you out on it.
You avoided me and I am sick of your bullshit
Feb. 17th, 2008 @ 06:43 pm
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So, here is the deal. I like this boy. His name is Phil. I like him a lot. And last night, we hung out again and I told him that I liked him, A lot. And I definatley think he knew. It was obvious. The thing is is that he didn't hint at any kind of thing saying that he was interested in me.
The thing going on with him right now is this guy Mike. I met mike, and he is a really funny guy. The problem, they have something SEMI going on, nothing serious, but he doesn't really know exactly what is going on. So I don't know what exactly is going to go on with him and me.
I don't know how much phil sees mike. I don't know about that, but I know that I have gotten to see him quite a bit lately. And the night we went to Necto and mike was with us, was interesting with phil and his escapades. When phil left, it was really interesting now that I look at it regarding his facial expressions.
So back to last night. I told phil how I feel. That is cool. And we talked a little bit. And I was like, well we can talk when you get back from Europe. I don't know how I want to approach the situation considering the fact that I don't want to bring up mike and what not just to not make a big deal of it. But I want to know more.
My plan, for when he comes back is that I want to take him bowling. But I don't want it just to be me and him. It has to be a couple of my friends and him just so that he can get to know my friends, and I can get to know him. We have spent time going to the bar, twice, and we have gone for coffee three times and I feel like something new has to occur. It can't be the same old same old.
The one thing that I am worried about is if things don't change between him and mike and I still act like there is a possibility and I don't know. Now I am just rambling. What I am going to do, is when we get back in class, I am not going to say anything. Allow him to initiate everything(like that will happen though, I will go crazy and start calling him) Whatever. We will see what happens.
Feb. 22nd, 2007 @ 06:41 pm
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I like a boy. I like him a lot. I haven't been like this in FOREVER!!!!!!! My heart is racing, and even though it sux, it feels great to know what this feeling is like again.
Feb. 14th, 2007 @ 08:05 pm
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Does anybody EVER write in these things anymore?
Jul. 25th, 2006 @ 03:40 pm
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I have this guy that I like. And by like, I mean I have this totally huge crush on and I think he totally likes me too. But, there is one minor issue. He lives in alabama. And is going to march at Boston Crusaders this summer. That officially sux. BUT, I am going to see him in may, so that should be exciting. Maybe I can plan something for after tour that we could do if things in may work out wonderfully! I really hope they do.
School is going alright, I guess lol. It is school, what more could you ask for?
Mar. 23rd, 2006 @ 09:12 am
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So there is this boy, that is totally adorable, totally cute, totally nice, and always willing to talk. But he is on xanga so that is why I am on here indulging myself about him. Like he is just amazing, I just wish he didn't live in alabama. It makes everything so difficult. I want to like go down and see him. He doesn't know it but I am in love, not really, but I can say what I want. I am going to marry him. I really am. Even though that is not possible. He is just so wonderful. I think I am just going to hold off on talking to him for a little bit and just wait till he says hi to me next. But he is always saying hey on xanga, and making comments about my entries. He is great. I have a huge infatuatino with him.
Mar. 8th, 2006 @ 12:11 am
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I have a crush on this really cute boy from trenton. Yeah, from trenton, so I don't know how I am going to meet up with him. But he is a really genuine guy from the long talks we have had. Sars about not updatin this in a LONG time.
Mar. 6th, 2006 @ 08:45 am
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1. Taken a picture naked? yes
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? ALL THE TIME, IT IS HOT!
4. Drove a car? yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? mostly when I am drunk or about to take a shower. I really should be videotaped it is quite funny.
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? yes
8. Stole money from a friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Snuck out of your house? can't say that i have.
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? yes
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? no
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? yes, ony if lins counts lol. YAY FIRST KISS!!!!
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? ugh YEAH
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? hehehehehehe, YES
20. Seen someone die? yes
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yup
23. Slept in until 3 in the afternoon? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? yes
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? yes
33. Touched a snake? all the time when i was younger.
34. Ran a red light? no
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? yes
37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? no
40. Pole danced? yes
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
46. Sang karaoke? yup
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
50. Kissed in the rain? yes
51. Sang in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? no
53. Had a dream that you married someone? yes
54. Glued your hand to something? nope, can't say that i have done that
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? hahahahahaha, NO
57. Been a cheerleader? OH BABY YEAH!!!!! MICHIGAN CHEERLEADING WHAT!!!!!!!
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? hell no i would not ever wait to take a shower for that long period of time
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes
64. Broken a bone? well since I am having surgery to repair a chipped disk i guess you could say that i have
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? oh yeah.....especially on the bus
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? yes and i love to, IT IS SO MUCH FUN
73. Blacked out from drinking? no
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made out with anything not human? ummmm...prolly my troll doll when i was younger hahahahaha
77. Failed a class? no
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? DRUM CORPS BABY!!!!!
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? can't say that i have
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? unfortunatley doing parades for the last three years all day and not getting to see fireworks SUX
82. Thrown strange objects? yes.
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Felt like running away? yes
85. Ran away? yes
86. Did drugs? one.....that is it
87. Had detention and not attend it? no
89. Made a parent cry? yeah
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Had/Have a dog? no
95. Own an instrument? yes
96. Been in a band? Band is life!!!!!!!!!
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no, but my roomies and I combined prolly have lol. WE ARE COKE ADDICTS!!!!
98. Broken a CD? yes
99. Shot a gun? yes
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? yes
Feb. 15th, 2006 @ 10:42 am
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